I'm Beginning to Forget You.

For The First Time

For The First Time

For the first time,
I see those colours
I hear the ones basking in happiness speak about.

That yellow, warm sunlight, starry night skies.
All my sorrows have melted away
Like glistening butter swirling
My head twirling, spinning,
How does his humbling words do that?

That natural confidence
Add his knowledge so vast
Regarding anything green
& in his mahogany arms,
I feel as though blanketed underneath
A pile of neatly swept autumn leaves
When we fall to sleep peacefully
Entwined at night.

Those blue, rings around his eyes
So kind baby, blew me away
Each time he calls my name
Sky- high;
He protects me with his life
I never needed to worry
If he would return, trust
Worthy man of his kind.

As though, my royal king in purple,
His mystery, will always hold my gaze.
Amazed, in a daze
Watching his lips turn up as he laughs
Innocence; my shoulders showing

Nervousness upon receiving his velvet
Kissing, vibrating till my toes, how does he do that?
Stealing my breath, dissolving my woes in it's effervescence.

That red, hot, scorching, intensifying
Excites every part of me, especially
His whispers of sweet
Everything-s, is turning me pink
Brings out of the woman in me
I have missed being around
His fiery passion of life, his spirit,
I now live the dream in reality

Of beautiful beginnings, in every awakening.

How he's so clear and precise,
So sure and concise of
How his life now comprised, of me.
When he hugs me from behind
I am blind,
Fireworks in the black skies;
White flashes of pictures never taken,
The rest of the world
Momentarily greys in comparison.

I've always paid attention to the negativity of life,
Always too close to resorting to the knife,
No longer need to fill, feel the void,
No longer paranoid,
&for the first time-
I no longer wake up
Shivering, shaking, withering like the flowers
In the beginning of winter mornings.

I have finally arrived at the end of the rainbow.

Forever.

Forever

It started with
A late photo shoot, and a host for a show.
A finishing film, and a tear down for another show.
A smoke break, and a digit trade.
A how do you do, and a good night to you too.
A rhyming call, and a wondering ball.
A booty call, and a i give you my all.

It started with
A good morning smile, and a good night- see you in a while.
A how was your day, and a see you later anyway.
A I love you, and a me too.
A I know, I know, I know, and a sorrow, borrow, I don't know.
A hope you are fine, yes i still whine, no we can't dine,
A song that reminds, a mind that rewinds, a bind that still, pines.

It started with
Oh you swine, oh you slime, oh you stupid? Fine.
Old and kind, Old and, never mind.
One more chance, one more dance, one more techno trance.
One more rave, one more slave, one more grave.
One more hit, one more bit, one more slit..

I stayed true and thru and through,
Out I went, out I spent, out I am again,
Still I love, still I live, still I lie,
Here, once more, here, once alone, here, stolen.

It ended with a
Thank you, Think you, Thought you,
For everything, For nothing, For anything,
You were right, You are light, You have taken away my fight.
Now I see only you,
Hear only you,
Think only you.

It started with a please smile,
It started with we smile,
It started with a waste of miles,
It ended with my smile.
Waiting, for a while, counting tiles.

I'll get there.
I'm sorry for breaking your spirit.
x

You Are The Universe

If I told you, 

You are the Universe, would you believe me?

If I told you, 

We are destined, would you believe me?

That amongst the galaxy, there are many planets,

But you chose to give mine life. 

You named several then, but they now revolve around my world,

Which you last named, and only I am still alive in you.

If I told you, 

You are the sky in my world.

I look up to you, endless, with hope,

Would you believe me?

If I told you,

Your white clouds, baby, blue highlights,

Allows my world to quietly day dream,

That your royal blue night sky, sprinkled with an overdose of glitter,

Creeping in slowly, to announce your arrival,

Allows my world, to scream their frustrations in their nightmares,

And you would wake their loved ones with your booming alarm,

To comfort them, washing their sounds away with rain, your tear- drops, 

Feeling helpless, but you always pull through,

Giving my world rainbows, with all the colours that makes up my world.

You make my world, smile, always, at the end of every storm.

If I told you, 

Your eyes, are the stars at night, 

I make wishes upon the stars that light up the darkness of my world.

They have been, long gone for many years, but still surround me at night.

They still twinkle to remind me I am not alone when I can't sleep, 

And they have granted all my wishes.

If I told you, 

Your secrets are the Moon, always somewhat hidden in the dark.

But, did you know, the Moon, is a visionary illusion,

That my world exists, to allow you to be seen, 

Reflect, leaving shadows,

Shadows, revealing your existent pain,

And the wolves in my world, howl for your hurt, 

When you finally show your entirety.

If I told you, 

You are the Sun- light in my world,

You are the only star that dares to come so close,

But keeps a distance so to never hurt me, yet keeps me warm.

That you are the only source of brightness in my world,

And everyone's source of energy.

The main, attraction, to me.

You are why flowers grow, why my world, has life.

You give me, life.

If I told you,

You are the Universe,

Would you believe me?