For The First Time

For The First Time

For the first time,
I see those colours
I hear the ones basking in happiness speak about.

That yellow, warm sunlight, starry night skies.
All my sorrows have melted away
Like glistening butter swirling
My head twirling, spinning,
How does his humbling words do that?

That natural confidence
Add his knowledge so vast
Regarding anything green
& in his mahogany arms,
I feel as though blanketed underneath
A pile of neatly swept autumn leaves
When we fall to sleep peacefully
Entwined at night.

Those blue, rings around his eyes
So kind baby, blew me away
Each time he calls my name
Sky- high;
He protects me with his life
I never needed to worry
If he would return, trust
Worthy man of his kind.

As though, my royal king in purple,
His mystery, will always hold my gaze.
Amazed, in a daze
Watching his lips turn up as he laughs
Innocence; my shoulders showing

Nervousness upon receiving his velvet
Kissing, vibrating till my toes, how does he do that?
Stealing my breath, dissolving my woes in it's effervescence.

That red, hot, scorching, intensifying
Excites every part of me, especially
His whispers of sweet
Everything-s, is turning me pink
Brings out of the woman in me
I have missed being around
His fiery passion of life, his spirit,
I now live the dream in reality

Of beautiful beginnings, in every awakening.

How he's so clear and precise,
So sure and concise of
How his life now comprised, of me.
When he hugs me from behind
I am blind,
Fireworks in the black skies;
White flashes of pictures never taken,
The rest of the world
Momentarily greys in comparison.

I've always paid attention to the negativity of life,
Always too close to resorting to the knife,
No longer need to fill, feel the void,
No longer paranoid,
&for the first time-
I no longer wake up
Shivering, shaking, withering like the flowers
In the beginning of winter mornings.

I have finally arrived at the end of the rainbow.

Fucking Ain't Conscious

Fucking Ain't Conscious

Their edition of the sex bible states:  "It's sexy when a woman's in charge."

Ask them about me and they will tell you I am strong

Ask if I pretended, they will laugh, saying I never cared if I was wrong

Never followed instructions, but always gave when they asked,

Till I memorized the spots, deep into the roots of their lust.

They always lose control,  and as if I held the remote,

They would beg for me to stroke, surrender as their ego would grow, 

Their moans would sing what I called " the anthem of the domesticated".

Yesterday I realized, that was just the soundcheck, not the entire fucking soundtrack.

You see, I've marked all the places I've discovered on a map that only I have ventured

Them boys don't realize that every girl, leaves a special taste. 

Like a different state, but er, kinda still the same place. 

Them boys, copies, pushes the same wrong buttons, go up and down like an elevator.

Predictable, no surprises, steady, nothing ever escalated.

Duplicated by the steps, which.. came first, original, but no, not the best.

You are the sequel, but I can't say you are my favorite, you can't be compared to the rest.

The fact that you didn't start by pushing my head down, asking me to suck

Immediately I was lost, I was freaking out, thinking what the fuck

Cos to be honest I would have been fine with just hearing your grunts

a man who gave me his hand to hold, instead of his dick to lead into my hole.

Man, you looked at me, not my boobs, my ass, so firm, your gaze, goddamn

Aaaaaaand I'm wet, my pussy, filled with your fingers, overflowing, well

You said, "Relax, I aim to please." Do nothing? I almost forgot how.

Boy, made my knees so fucking weak, and the moment you were in me,

You were a canoe in the rapids, rough, waves, coming, so hard

Yet no mishandling, finally with proper use,  it's as if you went to school

Learnt to play the keys of my piano, I heard chords I never knew existed,

As if you were my master, I was begging you to please, fuck me deeper, 

Your voice, excites, whenever you say, Kurashige.

You said not all poems needed to rhyme, in the end it all adds up

Titles and labels, age and whatever history says goes together

Doesn't matter, for some reason you are familiar, a nostalgia, 

Don't need you to complete me, I want you completely.

Now that it makes sense, let's begin again.

Natural Wonder

Natural Wonder

Nature, 

Is the only thing we do not have control over
Showcases its beauty, easy for you to discover.
However, if you dig you will uncover
it hides what we deem ugly, but it is actually all that we need.
So it stays underneath the light,

& allows itself to embrace only the night.

I think the world conspired us to be together.
That maybe, these disasters, its not simply because of the weather.
That maybe, global warming isn't the problem, but rather its the solution.
That maybe the wind blows the waves further, nearer
To prevent wars, break down these walls, to stop these long distance calls, because,
Nature knows the waves will soften the lands so we can make amends,
To protect what we need. Let the water seep,
Through the hardness it built to protect over the years.
Maybe we would get over the fears, no more tears. We wouldn't need numbers,
To subtract the distance measured by the seas, simply so i can kiss you with ease.
To be the glue to the gaps that you have, to be your last addiction,
No, wait, I don't want to just be a story you tell, 

So, instead, baby, make me your last addition.

And maybe running out of trees isn't such a big issue,
Well sweetheart, maybe they don't wanna make more tissues.
Or for me to write down what matters, 

When the only thing i can do is to write you love letters.
Cos they've been printing way too many books with these covers,
That makes me wonder why i am still so empty despite of all these shit they sell at borders.
I wish I was the kind that settles, so that I would not bother,
To look for someone that was forever, or for someone that was nothing like my father.
To stay with me till the candle dries, but no darkness, cos here comes the sunrise.

And maybe oil's running out, simply cos the world is sick of you running about.
Making your way to me, away from me, we both wish i was your missus.
Wait, i digress, let me finish the rest.

These natural wonders, yeah sometimes there will be thunders.
But darling, i'll never make your heart a doubter,
And as long as you never be an adulterer, i'll always be your meat pounder,
As long as you promise to always fuck me harder, yes, i know thats just the physical.

Okay if you must know, it's like the sun, you'll always the light that i need,
And even if it becomes dark too soon, i too, can be your light, very much like the moon.
I know you don't believe in forever, but to me, like nature, it's still here,
And i'll still be here, despite the weather.